Life Has Taught Me To Live In A Mask

I don't think there's anyone in my life who can say that they truly know me. I keep people at a distance revealing just enough to make them feel comfortable but not enough to get hurt. I don't really trust anyone enough to share that much of myself. 

Sometimes I even journal in code in case someone's feeling a little nosey and tries to take a peek into my world. They would never have enough of the backstory or information necessary to put the story together. 

A part of me likes it this way; prefers it even. Another part of me wonders what it feels like to be in the shoes of someone attempting to get to know me. I never share in detail. What will I do if I ever find myself in a relationship? Will I share these parts of me? Will I finally learn to be transparent? Will he appreciate the transparency? Can I trust it? Is it even worth it after working so hard to protect myself?

+Bria