Be Cautious

My posts tend to err on the side of caution. I share the superficial things with this site. Fashion tips and outfit ideas come easily to me. Spilling my guts to a bunch of "strangers" is not my idea of fun. Two of my very best friends are contributors on this site, and even they will tell you I'm guarded. 
I'm guarded because life has taught me to live in a mask. I don't think there's anyone in my life who can say they truly know me. I keep people at a distance revealing just enough to make them feel comfortable but not enough to get hurt. I don't really trust anyone enough to share that much of myself. I even journal in code just in case someone's feeling a little nosey and decides to take a peak into my world. They would never have the full backstory necessary to put the entries together. A part of me likes it this way; prefers it even. Another part of me wonders how it feels to be in the shoes of someone attempting to get to know me when I never share in detail. What will I do if I ever find myself in a serious relationship? Will I share these parts of me? Will I finally learn to be transparent? Will he appreciate the transparency? Can I trust it? Is it worth it after working so hard to protect myself? 

+Bria